Before My Husband Died….

Before my husband died he laid on his death bed waiting for the life support to be removed. He knew he would be dead within hours upon the removal of the machines keeping him alive. He told me that he wanted me to have a good life. He told me to trust Brigham Christianson at Fidelity to help with the finances and he told me to trust Andrew Miguel Mesa to help me care take our property and he encouraged me to trust him to help my body heal from the stress of grief. After his death Bob continued to communicate to both myself and Miguel. Bob had arranged payment for me to have 80 sessions with Miguel! Not only is Miguel helping me heal he is also writing a book about the journey. Here is Miguel’s website; the man my husband set up to help me get my life back together again.

www.apushasta.com

Here is Andrew Miguel Mesa’s first chapter of his book

copyright 2026

HEALING A HEALER

I dedicate this book to the

People of firmly established

practices which have

cultivated true authenticity,

making for a better present

moment & unhinged

spontaneity. Good humor

and the key to happiness,

Love and Generosity.

WHAT EXACTLY IS GETTING BETTER ?

I have to tell you I wouldn’t be thinking this question at all

had it not been for my own interests in being better at

things. Not in the sense of better than others at doing a

thing, but rather to improve on myself. To get better at

whatever it is that I am capable of growing into. Simply put,

Im good at a lot of things, but how is it that I can get better?

Since I was a kid building model rockets, model cars and

planes and scale trains, with my dad or putting together my

first skateboard it always engaged my mind to be building

things. From Shop class in high school to my first job after

high school as a construction laborer.

For most of my life, as far back as I can remember, I’ve

loved taking things apart and putting them back together,I

love fixing things. I fix my own car, bathroom remodels,

hang doors, renovations of all kinds from rooftops to

kitchens, you name it and I’ve probably fixed it one time or

another or took it apart, rebuilt it and put it back together,

renewed And running again. From resurfacing snowboards

and skis to resurfacing decks and railings. I’ve built dinning

room tables with leaves and converted a school bus into a

cabin twice. I’ve turned Natural rock into fine jewelry.

Transformed front yard dirt patches, into perenial flower

gardens and giant stone labyrinths.

I’ve been involved in construction from my first job after

high school, to still now in my fourties’ being in the

handyman, home improvement business. I’m also an

apprentice, member in the Laborers International Union of

Northern America. I’ve been doing some jobs lately to make

a whole bunch of things “ better”.. To make things better for

my clients and friends, in and around the home, has got me

thinking…, It’s continued to amaze me that so many people

would hire me to fix there things around the house, but very

rare did they hire me to fix there aches, pains, headaches,

indigestion, stiff joints and backs, stuck energy, pain in their

belly or tightness in their muscles, maybe because they

never knew I could, I mean, I rarely mention to people that

I’m a trained bodywork therapist. Or that I have a degree

from The international School of Shiatsu.

As a trained Asian Bodywork therapist, specifically in

Shiatsu, a 5000+ year system from which acupuncture is

based on, I plan to do what Bob did, value his gifts, namely

talent, what he saw in me..

That’s what brings us to our story, a story about working

with the hands, not to fix things or houses or engines or

anything else in the way a laborers or mechanic or

carpenter, but to help a person get better.

CHAPTER 1

WHO’S BOB?

Our story begins with a promise, that after we have

completed this journey, we will all be a changed. This

quest, may have never been possible without the life &

death of a friend of mine, his name was Bob.

Truthfully, I barley knew him, we only spent a few hours

together. Bob didn’t get along with too many folks and far

less got along with him, yet somehow he and I got along

good and he hired me for some small projects around the

house and paid me well.

We were able to make a solid connection. I didn’t see it at

the time, nor did I act on the fact that Bob did want to

spend some time together with me. We all had lunch

together one Sunday but Life had me all tied up to a pattern

that gave me little, to no freedom, a co-dependency

relationship.

I’ll tell you now, he may have seen something in me that I

had not yet recognized, and therefore I couldn’t see in him,

what he saw in me. Bob saw something, and what he saw

may have been more from a feeling than with his eyes. He

didn’t have the best eye sight and the glasses that he wore,

they were very thick, coke bottles with darkening lenses. He

was short and stout, and even though he spent much of his

life on the west coast sounded like he could have been from

and Italian neighborhood in Queens New York. He had a

keen sense of style from his checkered Alpaca sweater, to

his cherry red Mazda Miata, a classic 1991 convertible

roadster. Although this story is not about Bob, or me, it’s

more about what Bob left for us to look after in his absence.

Which brings us to the main character in this Novel, Robin.

Bob’s now Widow and heroine of this journey. Courageous

and brave her story of recovery and becoming after the

departure of her dear husband and best friend Bob.

What I am hoping to share in this story is what happens to

his wife Robin, during the course of receiving 80 Shiatsu

sessions over the course of about two years time. It’s a story

about her journey with Shiatsu as the medium, that she will

receive over the course of about two years, that’s our

commitment.

This is a story of life after death, To become closer with this

inevitable future that we all share, to die one day.

Until that day comes I wanna live as best as possible,

working to better my health and lifestyle as best I can. To

make as much positive change as possible for the good of

my family, my daughter and my community.

If there is one thing I can see that would truly be

something that I can do to bring that change into being, the

make things better, it’s Shiatsu.

In writing this journal of healing and discovering, a

documentation of the process in giving 80 hours of Shiatsu

sessions to one person, who has done so much to give to

others, that now it’s her turn to receive. I hope to honor a

man named Bob Bordonaro’s Legacy and venerate the

success of his life. so for now I’ll put down my hammer and

my saw to share with you a story of Shiatsu.

So let us begin our documentary of 80 Sessions….

Session number one.

I have really only been giving shiatsu for about twenty

years. I have treated a few hundred people and most have

been single, one time, treatments. One Reason why I’m so

excited about this treatment schedule is that we plan to

have 80 sessions over the course of a year and a half,

weekly.

Our first session was about an hour and a half, on a

Wednesday at 4 pm.it was a typical Mt. Shasta fall day. A bit

rainy and the first of a short cold snap that is a clear

indication the fall has begun, the first rain of the season.

We got right into it, with out too much chat, I appreciate

that about this work. It requires a brief introduction and a

check in, how things feel today or any priority we may want

to address in the session. Set up the futon, put together the

body cushions and she hoped down and stared by laying

face up. As it was our first session I started a general whole

body outline, knowing she had some neck issues I planned

to spend a good amount of time focusing on that area. I

moved around as I do, in a crawling, on my knees, with An

upright body posture that is a fundamental of Shiatsu that

gives the practitioner a good center of gravity and core

strength, with my movements being guided by my navel ,

belly region, called the “ Hara” in Japanese, or lower “Dan

Tuen” in Chinese.

When I moved to the area about her head and applied

gentle traction on her neck, immediately her body twitched

in a direction that showed be exactly where her stress was.

Literally as soon as I engaged her fascia, the soft connective

tissue of the body, she rippled like an electric shock had hit

her, from her neck all the way down to her left foot.

Her internal healing system is really active, making her own

micro adjustments and corrections. Once given the

freedom to do so, she got to it!

Some people may not ever have that freedom in the body,

or at least not for many many treatment. So it’s safe to say

this is gonna be interesting and incredibly cathartic for

Robin.

As we continued our session I moved around her in a

clockwise rotation. Again when I applied traction on her

ankles, with a slight pull, she went electric. Short twitch

here and there looking in from the outside look tiny, but

inside the body these kind of movements are gigantic

electrical impulses that can make for some very strong

changes.

I think it’s clear to me now, Robin has a very active internal

healing system. She’s a live wire and a powerful woman in

her own 90lb way.

I got back around to the place on the left side of the futon

that I had begun and had Robin go ahead and turn over, to

face down. Lots of activity here, her spine and central

nervous system is truly online.

STAY TUNED FOR MORE……

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